
These feelings may come as a surprise to many family members and friends who know me, seeing as how it has come as a surprise to myself. Being without a job for the last month has helped me come to the realization that I
love to stay home. This is something new I have learned about myself because I thought I received my biggest satisfaction in life from working and doing well in my career. When we first moved here, I was so stressed out because I couldn't stand just being home and not being able to find a job. In fact, I was kind of throwing a little pity party for myself, feeling really upset that it was taking me longer than I thought it should to get a job. But after talking to a very w
ise women, (my mother-in-law), she gave me some advice that really made the difference. She told me to just enjoy this time off and being able to have a break from work. Although I am diligently looking for a job, and have had a few interviews, I really like being a stay at home, domestic wife. I love being able to clean everyday, keep up with the laundry and dishes, cook, attend relief society activities, and write in my journal. Now that I am not working, I have the time and energy to do all these things. I knew there was some sort of lesson I was supposed to learn from this trial and stress of not being able to find a job. The lesson I learned is that I
want to be home, and have a family.
Even though I love babies, I didn't really feel like I was ready or would even enjoy staying home and having my own. I used to think, what on earth would I do all day without work? Where will I get my validation without the success of a career? Don't get me wrong, it's not that I didn't understand the importance of being a mother and home maker, I just didn't know where or when it would fit into my own life. It's funny how the Lord works, and this experience of being forced to slow down has
definitely changed my
paradigm and priorities. All it took was to slow down a little bit and have a little quiet time away from work and the drama of the work place, to help me realize what I want in life. For the past 5 years (and longer) all I have done is work, work, work. I have missed out on so many family, and church events. Working on my own talents, personal growth, and family has sort of taken a back seat to earning money and climbing the
corporate ladder. This may not seem like a big deal to some, but this is such a huge personal step and change of thinking for me. So who knows, maybe the
pitter-patter of little feet in our home is not too far in the distance...